Everbody needs someone to love them....

Aaron is well. He is back to school and no one else in the family succumbed to that blasted SWINE FLU but him.

We did make another trip to the ER today. Ammon started summer school on Monday. This is a new school for him as its where he will transition to kindergarten. He kept telling me, "NO!" when I told him it was time for school and I had to pry him out of the car and into his classroom. He didn't want me to leave him. Did he know something would happen?

I went to run errands and then got a frantic call from the school. Ammon was having a seizure. They had given him his first dose of rectal diastat and he was still seizing. As I'm talking to the panicked teacher I rolled through a stop sign and got pulled over. I rolled down the window and shouted out before the officer even reached my car, "Officer, my son is having a seizure! Would you like to escort me to the school and ticket me there?" He replied, "No, Ma'am, you are free to go".

When I arrived at the school he was still seizing. It had been 30 minutes total. I administered a second dose of diastat, bundled him in the car and zoomed to the ER where they escorted me immediately into a room. After 50 minutes, oxygen and more meds he finally stopped. That is so long to be compromised and for his brain to be misfiring.

The aides at the school were shaken and remorseful. They promised to never again let him go on the swings. I reassured them that its not their fault and explained that this is Ammon's life. This is all that he gets. And by damn it will be one filled with every sweet joy of childhood. Let him swing. Let him LIVE.

It was the same with the startled workers at Home Depot the other week when Ammon seized and face planted straight onto the cement floor and lay there bleeding from his nose and mouth. He will go to Home Depot again. He loves that store and there is still much for him to explore.

We had a new nurse today in the ER and she asked about Ammon's medical history. Again, we had to explain that we know nothing of his birth history or first years of life because he was abandoned. The nurse got teary and returned, "Oh, he is such a handsome boy. What you have done is a very good thing. Everyone needs someone to love them."

I have thought about that all day. I know what she meant, and I recognize that he is very blessed to have a family but I keep thinking that when it comes to love, Ammon is the teacher. He is the one whose face lights up like a billboard every time he sees people he loves. Even if he last saw you 5 minutes before! He is the one who makes sure everybody has been hugged and kissed before bed and multiple times during the day. Each of us needs Ammon to love us. Its a very good thing what we have done.

Stefani Ellison