Ammon, my son, we received an updated photo of you from the foundation which has sponsored you in foster care. You have now left the SWI to live with a foster family. You are the oldest child now waiting for your forever family to arrive as all your little friends have been adopted by their families or are in foster care because they have been sick and need extra attention. We hoped to get to you sooner but we are stuck waiting for TA.
Apparently, you love to go outside to the courtyard and "are very resistant to coming back inside". I'm reading between the lines that you love the outdoors and when its time to go inside you may even throw a tantrum to show your disapproval! We have all kinds of playthings outside and you'll have many chances for that when you get home.
So, until then you are with a foster Mama. We look at and look at your new picture. As it opened on our computer screen these were the thoughts that went through my mind, "Oh my gosh! Look at your hair! It is getting so long. You have grown so much, everything I have packed I think is too small. Your feet!! Are the shoes I bought going to fit?! And that shirt! How you must love that shirt. Each time you get a picture taken you are wearing that very same shirt. Perhaps it is your special shirt for nice occasions? Perhaps you feel awfully nice when you put it on? Look at your foster Mama look at you....what is she thinking? She looks kind and with enough energy to let you run and play. What are YOU thinking? You still have that ever present smile on your face but does it look a bit hesitant to anyone but me? You are clutching your snacks...does that make you feel safe? Do you have enough to eat? I wish you were home with us. I wish you were home."
We have your photo along with the others on the fridge and on my screensaver. We look at you and think of you countless times a day little son. Lan misses you and says its so boring with you not here. Do you know she plans to marry you when you both grow up? Someday she'll die of embarrassment when we remind her of that but for now we know that means she loves you. We all do.
Mama
